Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Yesterday was nearly over before I realized it was the equinox. So that makes today the first official day of fall (or was it yesterday? I get confused). I used to love this time of year, with its introduction to warm sweaters, and changing leaves, and crisp air. The sky always seemed bluer in October, and the smell of wood smoke was thrilling (we had a wood burning heater instead of central heat when I was growing up).
When I was nineteen, though, my PawPaw passed away in October. The following year, I lost a close friend in November. A couple of years later, another close friend passed away in December. Then there was September 11, 2001, and then the loss of yet another close friend. Fall started to be associated with loss and grieving and even when I didn't think about it, I began to notice that my whole demeanor changed starting in October (and then starting in September). My body grieves even when I don't consciously acknowledge it.
Also, I moved to Kentucky from Georgia ten years ago and I have yet to get used to the longer winters. Actually, I don't plan to get used to the longer winters. I'm just tolerating them until I can get back to the short winters I love (I miss spring arriving in March instead of May).
All of this is to say that I'm still in a little funk and I'm having trouble writing. I was proud of myself for getting into a rhythm of posting each weekday, and now I've missed several days in the past few weeks. Oh well. I do have a lot to share, I just can't seem to figure out how to say it. This post is kind of my attempt at "writing through the block" or whatever you want to call it. I'm also incredibly busy. Among other things, I'm making Abigail's Halloween costume, which involves using an actual sewing pattern for the first time. I didn't know it was so tedious.
Last year, I posted a fall to-do list to help me enjoy the season instead of dreading it. I didn't get to everything on my list last year, and I'm considering writing another for this year. What fun things does you family like to do during autumn? I'd love some ideas.